I still can't believe this. After a week of waiting, the phone I ordered finally arrived?! I was actually still sleeping when the deliveryman came so another person received it for me. But damn. I just had the loveliest morning for who knows how long had it been. I am just so happy last Friday! I swear, I am just so in a good mood that I literally finished all the pages I was assigned to do. Hah. Well, to be fair, the design for the project I'm currently working on is simpler and more professional that's why the CSS is easier. No freaking floating images and random lines whatsoever. Just sleek and sharp forms. I'm not sure if I will still be productive in Monday though. The remaining pages are quite hard even for a simple design... A product list and product page? Without CSS frameworks?! Damn.

Back to my new phone, I'm currently taking a lot of time migrating all my notes and stuff from one app to another app. Ever since my phone officially died, I've been using my laptop for everything even with my journal so it's really taking me a lot of time. But I know I'll finish this soon enough... if I don't get distracted. Oops. That aside, I'm just glad that I can finally get my shit together. I actually like writing notes and plans and listing down things that's why it was really hard for me to become organized when my previous phone broke since I put everything there. Nah, I don't feel safe in writing down on a notebook so I put all my stuff on my phone. But now, I'm back. After months of waiting, I'm finally back!

This week, a lot of things happened. If you ask me if I'm okay, I'll tell you straight up – no. But still, I feel very happy and excited. Because after months of living with no phone, I finally bought myself one! And with my own hard-earned money at that!! I'm just so happy. Finally I won't have to stay up all day in front of my laptop to do the very basic things. I won't have to open my laptop anymore just to check my todo list or just to write on my private journal. Aaaaa. Problems? I don't know her. Drama? I don't know her either. I swear. I'm way up in cloud nine. I don't care. People can go talk shit about me all they want but no, I'm just too happy they won't ruin my mood. Heh.

After a lot of re-rolling, I finally decided to just go back to my original account – the one with Ningguang as DPS. I don't know... I guess I just can't take the re-roll process anymore, that's why? I'll just focus on perfecting my playstyle + I'm also doing some trial and error for the best party with her as DPS. I'll also focus on saving gems for now and will just turn a blind eye on every 5-star limited banner. Ugh. Hopefully I will get to summon the one that I truly want someday. Ugh.

What a tiring week. We got a new project and so, we were asked to just choose freely what web page to do and damn, little did I know that I actually chose a complicated one. Things would be easier if we follow the basic CSS naming convention (the usual div#element-id.element-class thing) but since the company implements BEM naming convention (the div.block__element--modifier format + can't use IDs), my brain totally went error 404. The design was so complicated and there's literally something different in each section! I think I added 4 modifiers per class? Lol. But hey, I managed to survive this week. I actually finished all the pages I assigned myself and I honestly lowkey want to cry right now. But the big catch is I learned a lot! I admit I'm still insecure with my code because it's still messy compared to my superiors but I'm more optimistic than pessimistic right now when it comes to work so nope, I'm not going to cry over that. I'll just work harder and try to learn how they do things more efficiently so I can apply it the next time. Heh.

Also, looks like I'm back to this platform again after, uh, 3 months? Not sure but yeah, I'm back here. I was using Listed for the past months but ever since the UI update, I don't feel like staying there anymore. I mean, I literally left this place for Listed because aside from it's minimalist UI (before), there were more features for free users there than here. I never thought they'd murder their UI like that... I can't take the new design. I tired to customize it but I just don't like my blog in dark mode and their new UI setup is forcing it to go dark mode since I'm using dark mode for my OS settings. Meh. Also, the way they added cards and stuff like that... There's a reason I moved away from WordPress and it's that! It has become too crowded instead of the digital typewriter feel. So yeah, I guess I'll just stick to this (for now). I'm considering subscribing for Blot.im but with the way things are right now, me, being busy at work plus hobbies, I kinda think I'm just going to waste my money for it... We'll see...

I don't know if mihoyo hates me or what but I've been re-rolling since Zhongli banner but I still haven't gotten any limited 5-star character! Like, why? Am I that bad? I'm so annoyed. Eula banner passed, and now, it's just 2 weeks left before Klee banner ends which means Inazuma region is just around the corner which means new characters! Damn. I feel so frustrated. I don't know. I feel like I'll just quit Genshin if I still don't get a limited 5-star. Hopefully, it won't come to that.

First time commuting alone since pandemic? Disaster! Not really... But a lot of things happened that it took me 3 hours to get to my destination. No, the traffic wasn't that bad. It's just that I got lost! Not once, but twice. Pfft.

So, what happened was, I took the route I remember ever since the last time I went out without knowing they implemented new rules now. Before, if I want to get to the train station, I'd just take a bus and I'll be dropped off in front of the station without problems. Now, you have to get in this carousel thing-y (for free) in order to get to the train station. But I'm not sure if this is the case for PUVs. Plus, I'm not sure. Maybe I just took the wrong bus that's why I was dropped off somewhere else. Still, that took a lot of my time.

When I get to the train station, I thought my commute will go smoothly. Obviously, it didn't. It's nothing big this time. It's just that I wasn't familiar to the train station I dropped by so I had no idea where the exit is that I literally went to exit from the entrance. I was so shocked when I noticed that little label saying “Entrance only” that I ran fast without thinking. I'm so embarrassed inside but I know I had to act cool so I maintained my poker face. I don't think anyone saw me anyway. Whatever. At least my jeepney commute went smoothly. The jeepney driver knows the place I was talking about so he dropped me off at the right place.

Going home was a piece of cake for me since I already knew the updated route. I went to one of my favorite coffee shops and ordered myself pesto and a matcha drink for brunch. It was my first time to eat out ever since lockdown. Honestly, it's the first time I felt comfortable eating out alone because of the distancing protocol and the 1 is to 1 table ratio. I never had to worry about other people asking to share a table with me so it was less awkward for me. I actually enjoyed that brunch.

Honestly, that day was when I felt the most alive ever since lockdown because after a year or more, I get to experience again the crowd and the traffic. I'm not saying I like the crowds and traffics but you get my point. Anyway, until the government (in my country) learns its priorities, I don't think this pandemic will end soon so I guess it's pretty valid to say I miss those two things? Hah.

I just had a major nerve-wracking moment yesterday that I really thought I'll be kicked out from my company soon.

Well, for someone like me who isn't blessed with computer brain, it was a major moment. I don't know what I did wrong but I was just trying to rename my user profile directory through registry and then suddenly I can't get the Start Menu to open anymore. Take note, I was using the company laptop which means I'm dead if I break it. But I swear, I checked the tutorial I was following and made sure to do all the steps. And yes, I did it in safe mode. Yet, things still went downhill. I tried to google the error I was getting and followed different suggestions but I still couldn't get it to work! That's why I was in zombie mode today at work. I stayed up all night trying to figure out a way to solve this. Luckily, one of the fixes I found from my endless searching worked. It's to system restore my Windows. I know what system restore is and had used that before when I messed up with my personal laptop after trying to act like some cool IT girl and I would've done it earlier, and would be able to get an 8-hour sleep if only I remember my device's password. Obviously, I don't. That's why I even had to look for a way to reset my password! I was really sweating intensely all that time. Good thing I remembered when you use an Administrator account, you can change users' password and that's what I did. I swear I really thought last night would be the end of me. Fortunately, I am still here. I swear I'm going to make sure to use VMs from now on when I want to try tweaking my OS settings. It's about time I put to use the things I learned at college.

I still badly want to scream though not from frustration or embarrassment but out of relief. Too bad it's 11PM already here so I guess I'll just scream here. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

I am having a breakout right now and this has been the worst one ever since high school days. I usually just get 1-2 pimples before and I already call that a breakout but this time, it's for real because I have a lot. That's why these days, I am trying to find ways to improve my mood. I can't keep getting stressed out in every single thing so I'm trying to apply patience in wherever, whenever and just focus on doing things that lift up my mood. Though, of course, stress isn't the only reason for this breakout. Getting quality sleep is also important and I am so guilty of neglecting that. I mean, the only time I am able to do my workouts is at midnight so I have no choice. And although my workout usually just lasts up to an hour, I still sleep at 3am because I still do a lot of things like wash my hair and eat my post-workout meal / breakfast. The schedule sounds questionable but it works for me, especially I am at home with other family members who can't mind their own business. And no, doing it at my room isn't possible because of space. So yeah, I guess I should just minimize chitchatting so I could at least be done by 1am and be able to sleep at 2am. Or if I can, I'll try to move my workout time at 11PM or earlier or maybe do it in the morning instead. Whatever works.

The things I do for my skin. I know it sounds ironic with the way things are with me right now but I really prioritize taking care of my skin. Whenever I hear people tell me I look 19, it builds my self-esteem. And I never want to lose that. That's why I am willing to stop doing something once I get a sign that it's not doing my skin good. I hope my pimples heal fast.

I cut my hair short. Actually, I wasn't intending to go short short but the stylist didn't hear me so they went straight under my ear. It's ear-length right now. You know, bob pixie. I don't mind it short but I realized this length was really hard to maintain especially for my unruly hair. I am using my newly bought pair of ribbons to keep it in tact. But I don't know. If I get annoyed, I might cut it again. But I hope I don't because I just bought this cute bandanna and I won't be able to use it until my hair gets longer.

I'm writing this at work because I have nothing else to do. I've been wanting to update this blog since last week because I have a good news but I don't know where to start. I've written a lot of drafts but it always end up to the trash. But it's okay. As I've said, I don't want to pressure myself anymore. I write to feel better. Hopefully, I'll be able to put whatever I'm feeling these days into words soon.

PS. It's my bro's birthday!

These days are just so hot so I'm planning to get a haircut soon. But I won't go for a pixie yet because there's a style I want to try with my wavy hair. Plus, I just managed to grow my hair to shoulder length from a pixie cut. Took me 2 years, I think? Though, I will still be cutting big chunks from my hair once I go to the salon. Just not too short like my previous haircut. I can't help it! I just can't take the heat anymore.

I can't take summer mentally and yes, physically. I mean, my body is not good at handling the summer heat. I get skin rash all over my body. I don't know if heat allergy exists but I experience something similar to that. My skin dries so bad and becomes red. Even my hair is dry as hell! I have a thick, wavy hair and it's such a hassle when the weather's like this because it looks so out of nutrients. I also can't breathe properly when it's too hot. Maybe everyone's like that? But in general, what I want to say is, I really can't take this summer heat anymore. Sometimes, I even feel like camping inside the fridge just to stop myself from sweating. We don't have an air conditioner in our house that's why we have to put up with the summer heat all the time. I hope I can become a regular employee as soon as possible so I can save fast and install one in our house

For now, I can only hope for the rain to come soon. But just the right amount of rain, okay? I had to say it because of that scene from the Korean movie Parasite (2019). Please?!