月

A very peaceful week has passed. Well, not as peaceful as you might think but it's still peaceful compared to the last week where I almost broke down. Okay. I'm going to stop talking about that or it might trigger my anxiety once again. Going back, actually, I had a talk with myself that's why. And wow, I have never felt this comforted? So there was this thing that's been bugging me ever since I started communicating again with people. So, I am in the same circle with this person but for some reason, she doesn't react to my replies at all in our group chat after I got back. Like, she purposely ignores everything I say. Obviously, I felt so weird about it. At first, I was like, let's just not mind her. I tried to give her a chance (mentally), like I was the one replying to her directly but meh, she still won't reply at all. So, I decided to just cut ties with her for real and soft-blocked her on my very private twitter. I just can't allow her anymore to see my thoughts when she's literally ignoring me like that. I'm not blaming her if she can't feel a connection with me anymore. We were never that close to begin with. But I am not going to try to fix that up. We're grown-ups already. Well, we're still in our 20s but damn, I don't have the energy to do that. I have a lot of shit to deal with. I'm not going to waste my energy for someone who obviously doesn't want to keep ties with me. So, yeah. After soft-blocking her, I really feel at ease now. In my mind, I was just relieved because finally, I will no longer have to feel burdened about what's between us – whether I should keep it or not and I am proud of myself for doing that – for choosing what makes myself feel at peace.